I’m totally amazed by the work of Gary Yap.

I’ve been working hard, avoiding the bad stuff.  I’ve also been enjoying junk food and alcohol as much as possible.  Life has been a strange combination of bleak and exciting.  New opportunities and constant reminders of my past mistakes.  I’m trying really hard not to hate life so much.

I have a few things to look forward to next month.  First of all I’m finally starting my sleeve in the first week of October.  I’ve been looking forward to this for years, and it’s going to be a big project.  I’ll talk more about that when it actually happens, because I feel like a loser going on about something I haven’t even started.  It took me a long time to get an appointment with this guy, and even longer to figure out what I wanted to permanently cover my arm with forever.

More exciting news!  I’m going to see Gisele for a few days.  The rest of the year is going to be crazy for me,  between appointments, shoots, and the holidays. But we decided to set aside some girl time.  Cupcakes, wine, movies, shopping, spa day, and just vegging out.  This is something we both really need, and it’s been too long since I’ve seen her.  Why can’t Texas be next to Michigan?!

There’s a few other lovely cam girls I’d like to meet & visit with soon.  Maybe I need to take a trip across the country.  I wish I could find someone to go with me.  I’d need a big RV & space for my critters.

Goofy pic! Post camming afterglow.

I made it to my PO Box a few days ago, and boy am I a lucky girl!  Of course the cats always think everything is for them.  They like to sniff the packages, & lay on the envelopes.  Sometimes I save the boxes, because they like to shred the cardboard and make them into beds.

I’ve been really busy with work, and trying to make some extra money.  I’m pretty much caught up on thank you videos & pics, so if you bought me a gift check your inbox.  I’m going to check the post office again today before it closes.   Every outfit I get is used for site content, but I try to make special private content for the boys who really go all out and spoil me. ^_~

Right now I really need new make up. A bunch of my make up broke open in my train case the last time I traveled.  Some of the shoots I do require elaborate hair and make up.  The expenses for wardrobe and cosmetics are way beyond what I can manage with my debt.  I do what I can to cut corners.  I don’t hire stylists or make up artists.  I do everything myself from my hair, to my pedicure.  It’s so nice that I have friends and fans who like to help out, otherwise my shoots would be pretty plain!  If anyone wants to buy me a Sephora e-gift certificate, you can send it to my E-mail. Anything purchased from my wish list helps me out too!

I forgot to post the winning entries.  Thank you ValiantAce & Geo!  Great fan signs.  ^_^

I have more GodsGirls memberships to give away, but I’ll be doing a viorotica.com contest next.  Stay tuned for free memberships!

I need more outfits! I go through exotic apparel like a full time stripper. You gotta admit, I’m pretty generous with the boob action.  Hook a girl up, and I’ll loves you forevers!  Dress up Violet Doll for sexy time. <3  I’ll use it for cam shows & my members area content.  Just like the swim suit in the picture below that an awesome Viorotica member got for me.  Thank you so much Nate!!

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Don’t forget, my GodsGirls contest ends tomorrow. Details here for a free membership.

I’m starting to love tumblr as much as I love Twitter.  More even.  I don’t have a fancy layout or anything, but I do upload pics there regularly. And lemme tell ya, there’s no shortage of hot naked chicks over there. Let’s tumble together!  Go follow me.

I’m trying to eat really super healthy for a while, & clean out my system.  I think I may have gained a few pounds, which doesn’t really make me feel any less attractive.  It makes me sluggish, and my clothes are uncomfortable.  It’ll only take me a week or so to lose, but I’m going to try a lot of healthy home cooked meals.

Tonight I made something super yummy.  Broiled salmon with fresh lemon & dill.  Oh so simple to cook, but absolutely delicious if you use really good salmon fillets.  I can’t force down salmon when it’s chewy like leather.  This stuff melted in my mouth.  The rice dish on the side is brown rice that I cooked in vegetable stock.  Then I added sauteed mushrooms, onion, parsley, garlic, and a bit of sea salt and black pepper.  I can’t believe how wonderful everything tasted, without adding a ton of fat or sauces.  The portions in this pic look really huge, but I use small plates.  I swear it makes me eat smaller servings.

I mentioned a few weeks ago that I stopped eating meat.  Well I did, although I still consider fish meat I suppose.  I don’t think of myself as vegetarian.  I was a very strict vegetarian/vegan for several years, even on and off in elementary school.  In my late teens I went through a dark period, and I just stopped caring.  I became a very apathetic person, and I saw no point in not eating meat when everyone around me was.  I also started binge eating a lot.  Something made me want to change that recently.  I guess the people in my life are more supportive of my beliefs and convictions.  I’m happier with my current living situation, even though I complain about my job and money problems a lot.

As I’ve said before, I do believe humans are meant to be omnivorous.  I don’t agree with the way animals are farmed, and slaughtered.  I don’t agree with the waste and cruelty in the meat industry.  While I don’t want to seem as though I’m naive to the fishing industry, or I find the life of a fish less valuable than any other creature,  it just doesn’t bother me as much.  I spent every summer of my childhood fishing with my father.  I baited the hook, I caught the fish, I helped my father kill and clean the fish, and yes we cooked and ate our catch. Many generations of our family did the same.  It fed my Great Grandfathers family during the depression.  I could never behead a chicken, hunt a deer, or slaughter a pig or cow.  Which is why I can no longer justify eating those animals.  I’m going to eat fish sparingly, and try to keep healthy eating habits.  I’m not much of an extremist, but I feel good about this.  I like balance.

Violet wants a violet wand, for sexual purposes.  Also they look pretty cool, and the name is fitting don’t ya think?  The actual wand is expensive, but the  electrodes aren’t too bad.  They come in a lot of shapes and pretty colors.  I can think of a few fun things to do with them.

I’m taking a break from some of my responsibilities, including member chats.   I’ll be returning once the chat room is updated and everything works smoothly.   I’ve been under a lot of stress lately.  Private matters I’d rather not speak of right now.  My site will be updating as normal during my break, and I’ll be back in action before ya know it.

I’m long over due for a “thank you” blog.  I’ve been spoiled quite a bit lately.  Most of the time I prefer to make special private videos or pic sets for those who spoil me, which will be coming soon for some of you.  I think you guys deserve a shout out as well.

Mike, you’ve already received your Violet lovins, but I cannot thank you enough for the most generous gift anyone has ever given me. <3  You changed my life.  You’re a helluva guy, and I’m glad you’ve followed me throughout my crazy cam girl career.

Thank you Rob, for getting me a lens for my camera.  A very useful and generous gift, and I didn’t think anyone would buy it to be honest.  It should be arriving any day now!  Can’t wait to take my first pics. ^_^  Muah!

Thank you to the duo, Cris and Matt for the awesome t-shirts and the donation.  (:  Such a special surprise in my PO Box, that made me smile.  Thank you for showing up to so many of my silly member chats, regardless of me being a big depressing loser face. You two are the best!

Masahiro, you’re always so giving without ever asking for anything in return.  You’re very kind to the models you adore, and we adore you just as much!  Thank you for the sexy outfits, the generous tips, and the sweet messages.  You make me laugh, and warm my heart.  ♡

Chris(t), we have amazing chats.  You’re great to talk to, you’ve made several of my hellish work nights easier.  You made my chipin look less pathetic, and you raped my wish list more than once.  You make camming easy, because it’s always fun with you.

Markus, you’ve made some very generous donations towards my debt out of no where.  Totally unexpected, but so appreciated. You also offered some really great advice in my time of need.  Thank you so much for contributing. (: You wanted to help me in spite of your own debt, which says a lot about your character.

Nate we haven’t spoken in a while, but I haven’t forgotten you!  I loved your awesome surprise packages from Gaum, and you’ve sent me quite the cam girl wardrobe.  You’re a sweetheart with great taste, and you made my tummy happy!

If I’ve forgotten anyone, I’m sorry.  I’m not trying to make anyone feel left out, don’t hate me.  I’m a spoiled brat, and some of these guys really got my attention.  Most importantly, they understand the concept of a gift being a gift.  They don’t hound me for anything in return.  I do love and appreciate each and every one of my members.  You don’t have to throw your money at me to be a good fan.  If you can’t afford to buy a membership to my site,  spread the viorotica word!  If you can’t afford to spoil me,  just show up to my chats from time to time.  A good audience is always encouraging.

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DON’T FORGET ABOUT THE GODSGIRLS MEMBERSHIP GIVE AWAY CONTEST!!!!

Yesterday was like Christmas and my Birthday combined.  I received a package in my PO box containing the best gift ever.  ^_^  I’m the happiest girl in the world.  Canon EOS 5D Mark II!!!!!

I’m so touched that someone was generous and caring enough to get me such a fantastic gift.  I feel so special right now.  Someone’s getting all kinds of Violet lovin’ and custom nudie vids!! ^_-  Thank you so much.  I can’t stop smiling.  <3  You’re a sweet heart.

I don’t have a lens or flash yet, but I couldn’t even afford the body alone.  I thought it would be years before I would get a new camera.  My wish list is now full of lenses and camera accessories, but I’m so inspired to work harder for everything I need.

I also got a GodsGirls t-shirt! It’s awesome.  I’m not a very good t-shirt model.  You can’t even read it.  Don’t mind my messy pony tail.