I forgot to post the winning entries.  Thank you ValiantAce & Geo!  Great fan signs.  ^_^

I have more GodsGirls memberships to give away, but I’ll be doing a viorotica.com contest next.  Stay tuned for free memberships!

I haven’t blogged in a while. I’m going through some pretty serious stuff. Don’t know what else to say. I’ve learned by now that sharing personal details of my life isn’t smart. Besides, people complain when my entries are depressing.

I’m on the verge of disappearing. The people who hate me might just get what they’re after. It seems like I have a lot of support whenever something goes wrong, but for the most part everyone stands by helpless. Including me. I’m lost, and damaged.

My ass is still perky at least.

White chocolate pudding, with blackberries & whipped cream. All low fat, all sugar free, 100% delicious!

At age three, I took my first ballet class.   I continued for ten years, until I became an apathetic teenager who saw performing as an embarrassment.  Sometimes I wish I would’ve continued.  Although I think ballet contributed to most of my insecurities, it also gave me the ability to appear confident and beautiful even when I’m not feeling so.  I can hold a pose like a statue, and I have my Mother to thank for that.

I’m not nearly as graceful as I used to be, but yes I stood & walked in these shoes without help.  I stumbled a bit, even so I impressed myself!   They’re not like real pointe shoes at all. I think the heel made standing in them more difficult.  I like a challenge, a little discomfort, and even a little pain.  As long as I’m in control. ^_-

The full video is live on my site now, so join and check it out!

Violet Doll Fetish Ballerina
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Thank you to Masahiro, for the beautiful heels and outfit.  I hope you enjoy seeing it put to work! <3

I need more outfits! I go through exotic apparel like a full time stripper. You gotta admit, I’m pretty generous with the boob action.  Hook a girl up, and I’ll loves you forevers!  Dress up Violet Doll for sexy time. <3  I’ll use it for cam shows & my members area content.  Just like the swim suit in the picture below that an awesome Viorotica member got for me.  Thank you so much Nate!!

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Don’t forget, my GodsGirls contest ends tomorrow. Details here for a free membership.

I’m starting to love tumblr as much as I love Twitter.  More even.  I don’t have a fancy layout or anything, but I do upload pics there regularly. And lemme tell ya, there’s no shortage of hot naked chicks over there. Let’s tumble together!  Go follow me.

I’m trying to eat really super healthy for a while, & clean out my system.  I think I may have gained a few pounds, which doesn’t really make me feel any less attractive.  It makes me sluggish, and my clothes are uncomfortable.  It’ll only take me a week or so to lose, but I’m going to try a lot of healthy home cooked meals.

Tonight I made something super yummy.  Broiled salmon with fresh lemon & dill.  Oh so simple to cook, but absolutely delicious if you use really good salmon fillets.  I can’t force down salmon when it’s chewy like leather.  This stuff melted in my mouth.  The rice dish on the side is brown rice that I cooked in vegetable stock.  Then I added sauteed mushrooms, onion, parsley, garlic, and a bit of sea salt and black pepper.  I can’t believe how wonderful everything tasted, without adding a ton of fat or sauces.  The portions in this pic look really huge, but I use small plates.  I swear it makes me eat smaller servings.

I mentioned a few weeks ago that I stopped eating meat.  Well I did, although I still consider fish meat I suppose.  I don’t think of myself as vegetarian.  I was a very strict vegetarian/vegan for several years, even on and off in elementary school.  In my late teens I went through a dark period, and I just stopped caring.  I became a very apathetic person, and I saw no point in not eating meat when everyone around me was.  I also started binge eating a lot.  Something made me want to change that recently.  I guess the people in my life are more supportive of my beliefs and convictions.  I’m happier with my current living situation, even though I complain about my job and money problems a lot.

As I’ve said before, I do believe humans are meant to be omnivorous.  I don’t agree with the way animals are farmed, and slaughtered.  I don’t agree with the waste and cruelty in the meat industry.  While I don’t want to seem as though I’m naive to the fishing industry, or I find the life of a fish less valuable than any other creature,  it just doesn’t bother me as much.  I spent every summer of my childhood fishing with my father.  I baited the hook, I caught the fish, I helped my father kill and clean the fish, and yes we cooked and ate our catch. Many generations of our family did the same.  It fed my Great Grandfathers family during the depression.  I could never behead a chicken, hunt a deer, or slaughter a pig or cow.  Which is why I can no longer justify eating those animals.  I’m going to eat fish sparingly, and try to keep healthy eating habits.  I’m not much of an extremist, but I feel good about this.  I like balance.

Violet wants a violet wand, for sexual purposes.  Also they look pretty cool, and the name is fitting don’t ya think?  The actual wand is expensive, but the  electrodes aren’t too bad.  They come in a lot of shapes and pretty colors.  I can think of a few fun things to do with them.

I’m taking a break from some of my responsibilities, including member chats.   I’ll be returning once the chat room is updated and everything works smoothly.   I’ve been under a lot of stress lately.  Private matters I’d rather not speak of right now.  My site will be updating as normal during my break, and I’ll be back in action before ya know it.

I’m long over due for a “thank you” blog.  I’ve been spoiled quite a bit lately.  Most of the time I prefer to make special private videos or pic sets for those who spoil me, which will be coming soon for some of you.  I think you guys deserve a shout out as well.

Mike, you’ve already received your Violet lovins, but I cannot thank you enough for the most generous gift anyone has ever given me. <3  You changed my life.  You’re a helluva guy, and I’m glad you’ve followed me throughout my crazy cam girl career.

Thank you Rob, for getting me a lens for my camera.  A very useful and generous gift, and I didn’t think anyone would buy it to be honest.  It should be arriving any day now!  Can’t wait to take my first pics. ^_^  Muah!

Thank you to the duo, Cris and Matt for the awesome t-shirts and the donation.  (:  Such a special surprise in my PO Box, that made me smile.  Thank you for showing up to so many of my silly member chats, regardless of me being a big depressing loser face. You two are the best!

Masahiro, you’re always so giving without ever asking for anything in return.  You’re very kind to the models you adore, and we adore you just as much!  Thank you for the sexy outfits, the generous tips, and the sweet messages.  You make me laugh, and warm my heart.  ♡

Chris(t), we have amazing chats.  You’re great to talk to, you’ve made several of my hellish work nights easier.  You made my chipin look less pathetic, and you raped my wish list more than once.  You make camming easy, because it’s always fun with you.

Markus, you’ve made some very generous donations towards my debt out of no where.  Totally unexpected, but so appreciated. You also offered some really great advice in my time of need.  Thank you so much for contributing. (: You wanted to help me in spite of your own debt, which says a lot about your character.

Nate we haven’t spoken in a while, but I haven’t forgotten you!  I loved your awesome surprise packages from Gaum, and you’ve sent me quite the cam girl wardrobe.  You’re a sweetheart with great taste, and you made my tummy happy!

If I’ve forgotten anyone, I’m sorry.  I’m not trying to make anyone feel left out, don’t hate me.  I’m a spoiled brat, and some of these guys really got my attention.  Most importantly, they understand the concept of a gift being a gift.  They don’t hound me for anything in return.  I do love and appreciate each and every one of my members.  You don’t have to throw your money at me to be a good fan.  If you can’t afford to buy a membership to my site,  spread the viorotica word!  If you can’t afford to spoil me,  just show up to my chats from time to time.  A good audience is always encouraging.

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