I’ve been working hard, avoiding the bad stuff.  I’ve also been enjoying junk food and alcohol as much as possible.  Life has been a strange combination of bleak and exciting.  New opportunities and constant reminders of my past mistakes.  I’m trying really hard not to hate life so much.

I have a few things to look forward to next month.  First of all I’m finally starting my sleeve in the first week of October.  I’ve been looking forward to this for years, and it’s going to be a big project.  I’ll talk more about that when it actually happens, because I feel like a loser going on about something I haven’t even started.  It took me a long time to get an appointment with this guy, and even longer to figure out what I wanted to permanently cover my arm with forever.

More exciting news!  I’m going to see Gisele for a few days.  The rest of the year is going to be crazy for me,  between appointments, shoots, and the holidays. But we decided to set aside some girl time.  Cupcakes, wine, movies, shopping, spa day, and just vegging out.  This is something we both really need, and it’s been too long since I’ve seen her.  Why can’t Texas be next to Michigan?!

There’s a few other lovely cam girls I’d like to meet & visit with soon.  Maybe I need to take a trip across the country.  I wish I could find someone to go with me.  I’d need a big RV & space for my critters.

Goofy pic! Post camming afterglow.

I made it to my PO Box a few days ago, and boy am I a lucky girl!  Of course the cats always think everything is for them.  They like to sniff the packages, & lay on the envelopes.  Sometimes I save the boxes, because they like to shred the cardboard and make them into beds.

I’ve been really busy with work, and trying to make some extra money.  I’m pretty much caught up on thank you videos & pics, so if you bought me a gift check your inbox.  I’m going to check the post office again today before it closes.   Every outfit I get is used for site content, but I try to make special private content for the boys who really go all out and spoil me. ^_~

Right now I really need new make up. A bunch of my make up broke open in my train case the last time I traveled.  Some of the shoots I do require elaborate hair and make up.  The expenses for wardrobe and cosmetics are way beyond what I can manage with my debt.  I do what I can to cut corners.  I don’t hire stylists or make up artists.  I do everything myself from my hair, to my pedicure.  It’s so nice that I have friends and fans who like to help out, otherwise my shoots would be pretty plain!  If anyone wants to buy me a Sephora e-gift certificate, you can send it to my E-mail. Anything purchased from my wish list helps me out too!

An intimate self shot look at bath time with me!  Two part nude video is available now. Join Viorotica.com and watch me wash my sins away.

I forgot to post the winning entries.  Thank you ValiantAce & Geo!  Great fan signs.  ^_^

I have more GodsGirls memberships to give away, but I’ll be doing a viorotica.com contest next.  Stay tuned for free memberships!

I haven’t blogged in a while. I’m going through some pretty serious stuff. Don’t know what else to say. I’ve learned by now that sharing personal details of my life isn’t smart. Besides, people complain when my entries are depressing.

I’m on the verge of disappearing. The people who hate me might just get what they’re after. It seems like I have a lot of support whenever something goes wrong, but for the most part everyone stands by helpless. Including me. I’m lost, and damaged.

My ass is still perky at least.

White chocolate pudding, with blackberries & whipped cream. All low fat, all sugar free, 100% delicious!

At age three, I took my first ballet class.   I continued for ten years, until I became an apathetic teenager who saw performing as an embarrassment.  Sometimes I wish I would’ve continued.  Although I think ballet contributed to most of my insecurities, it also gave me the ability to appear confident and beautiful even when I’m not feeling so.  I can hold a pose like a statue, and I have my Mother to thank for that.

I’m not nearly as graceful as I used to be, but yes I stood & walked in these shoes without help.  I stumbled a bit, even so I impressed myself!   They’re not like real pointe shoes at all. I think the heel made standing in them more difficult.  I like a challenge, a little discomfort, and even a little pain.  As long as I’m in control. ^_-

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Violet Doll Fetish Ballerina
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Thank you to Masahiro, for the beautiful heels and outfit.  I hope you enjoy seeing it put to work! <3